God works in mysterious ways.

This past Friday, Valentine's Day, should have been my worst on record. It's the first one since 1995 that I've spent without a boyfriend. I just realized that right now and I'm rather in disbelief. :) I suppose one might say 1998 was iffy, because I don't really remember exactly when I started dating that guy, and it only lasted about two weeks. But anyway... in eight years, this is at most my second Valentine's Day without a boyfriend, and more than that, it came up three days after the breakup (honest, I didn't plan that at all). So it should have been the worst one ever. It should have been the Black Friday that single people dread every year. But it wasn't. It was the best one I've ever had, and I'm still in disbelief about that. I found out I have people who truly love and support me, and they helped make it one of the best days I've ever had. I am so so thankful for all of them and for everything they've done for me. So much so that I actually gave out thank-you cards in lieu of regular valentines this year. :) I think I am the luckiest girl in the whole world.

I'm really happy with how things are going between Ry and me, too. He's doing so much better than I thought he would be and that really lifts a little weight off my shoulders. I think he's starting to realize that I really am serious, and even though that's really hard for him to accept I think he'll be able to. It won't be easy but I know it's going to work itself out, and that's a big help.

Funny thing about this week: I didn't realize until yesterday how many people actually read this stupid blog. I mean, maybe my friends read it, sure. But last night I found out my parents had heard about the breakup from someone at church, who actually read it here. :) Maybe I should start being careful about what I say... *shrug* I'm actually more careful about what I say than you might realize. Some stuff has to stay between me and God. :) But it's nice knowing you all care.

Happy belated Valentine's Day to all. If only every day could be Valentine's. :) Then maybe we would always know what it's like to love and be loved in return.