Executive decision: the red bathing suit is coming. I'm still not sure whether I'll actually wear it or not... but I will bring it. Just in case I decide that I need it.

Funny thing about bathing suits, or at least, it is funny to me, since I am not one who regularly takes off large amounts of clothing in front of people. The only person I would actually want to see me in my underwear is my future husband. And yet I am considering bringing a bathing suit that covers less of my body than most of my underwear, to wear on a cruise ship (or a beach) full of people I don't even know. And what bothers me is not the number of people that I DON'T know who might see me in it. I'd be more uncomfortable wearing it around the people that I DO know. Why is that? Locke and I had a long conversation about this last week actually. I concluded that the reason I wouldn't want to wear it around my brothers is because I'm not sure I'm comfortable with them wearing (or not wearing) certain things around me... because I stare. I admit it. I stare. I don't WANT to but I do, and because I do it I am usually under the impression that everyone is staring at me. And I DEFINITELY don't want certain people staring at me. (Hehe, well, there is the occasional exception, but in general, I don't want my guy friends staring at me.) I think I only have this problem around guys... the curse of having guys as friends... if I were taking a cruise with three girls there'd be no question -- the red bathing suit would be there and I'd be wearing it all the time!

So why don't I just leave the red bathing suit home and wear one of my other two? (Yes, I have three.) Well... I think I'll get the best tan in the red one. ;) Isn't that what bathing suits are supposed to be for?