It's Thursday.



This has been a long and short week. The days have seemed long and pointless, and yet somehow it is already Thursday and I feel I haven't accomplished much. Indeed, it is already 10:00 now and I haven't accomplished anything so far this morning. Not that I won't be getting to work very soon. ;) Just need to vent, a little bit.



It is tense up here [at work], has been all week. Two guys are laid off this week, just for the week, but still that leaves me as the only member of the web department that's here. Why they kept me, I can't be sure. Not that I'm complaining. ;) But anyhow, I think that even though no one's talking about it, there's an air of foreboding up here. Things aren't looking good when a company is laying people off, even though the layoffs are temporary. But I've been hoping for a raise (which has been talked about since January) and I'm not seeing that anytime soon. Obviously they can't afford to pay me MORE money, if they can't even afford to pay everybody they've got here right now. So that's been kind of a bother.



Other problem being that I'm not seeing where we're headed, necessarily, as far as turning the business around. I don't know anything about business, nor do I pretend to. :P But it seems to me that what we need is a really good idea, and it seems to me that we are lacking in that department. Oh we've got a bunch of stuff on the table. A lot of stuff. Almost too much stuff, if you know what I mean. Too many half-thought-out ideas, not enough concentration in one area. I do understand that throwing everything into one project involves a lot of risk, and spells disaster if that one project doesn't take off. But at the same time, you can also go too far in the other direction. Too spread out and not enough focus. Like I'm working on this project lately that just seems, well, pointless. What we need is a really good idea. Unfortunately I don't quite have one. :P Just a couple of half-formed ones that aren't too bad. But even if all we did was take it down a notch and really concentrate on one of the ideas we already have, that might be good. Like the school district websites. Make them even cooler... template them... find out what school districts, teachers, etc really want out of a website, and make it. When I was working on the same type of idea as an independent project, that's what I was trying to do. Mine was very primitive, but I think it could have been really cool. The one the company's done really isn't bad, but I'm sure it could be better... but instead of concentrating on schools and teachers, once there was a working school site done, first thing was to genericize it and turn it into something churches, clubs, firemen can use -- the same product, under different names. I guess that's not such a bad thing, but it seems to me that picking one and focusing on it, making it more specific to the particular needs and LESS generic, would work better in the long run. But as I said, I don't really know anything about business... and maybe it is the short run that we are really more worried about right now, so maybe this will work out for the better. I just work here.



Last weekend I was home. Another whirlwind weekend, as they always are, with never enough time to see everyone and spend any time doing one thing. This time it was graduation weekend for a couple kiddos I used to babysit for. (I am getting old.) ;) That was fun, I got to spend a little bit more time with the parents this time. Also saw Molly and took her out to shop some and have lunch. She looks so cute, and she said Eva kicks up a storm when she gets going... that baby wants out! :) It was nice to see her and my sister and nice to see the graduates, and nice going out to lunch on Sunday with my parents, my aunt, and my grandfather. And one big surprise, I got to see the mom and kids that I babysat for three summers ago. It was a cool weekend but way too short, and I missed Joe. :P And ever since I got back it feels like I am busy constantly, even though that is not true, but for whatever reason, it just feels that way. There's a lot of stuff I'd like to do, but it just never seems like there is time enough to do any of it. Story of everybody's life though I guess.



Anyhow, I'm gonna stop being gloomy now and go do some work, I think. More stuff to talk about but it can wait awhile.