Okay. No one can tell me why they're Catholic, or why they're not, or why they're whatever they are. Not really. And that's okay. I'm okay with that. I can't decide to be Catholic (or Protestant, or whatever) based on what somebody tells me. I have to do what God is telling me. The problem is that I'm not sure how to listen to him, so I think I'm hoping he's going to talk to me through somebody else. (He's done it before.) But it doesn't have to work that way. I think I'm trying too hard, so I just need to loosen up and let go a little bit, and by Advent, when I have to decide, I'll know. I just have to have faith in that. :P



Real faith is a new experience for me. It's hard. It actually requires effort. Everybody says that but apparently today I am just realizing it for the first time. :P



Anyway. I'm done being weird. For now. :)