I love waking up after a good night's sleep to a beautiful clear blue sky. I actually woke up at 7, believe it or not, and stayed in bed until 7:30, which is funny because my alarm was set for 8. I guess going to bed at 11:30 was good for me!

I don't know how I am going to make it the whole six and a half hours I have left until 3:00! :) Especially since I've got classes at 1 and 2... that last one is going to be hellish. Ah well, such is life! I will make it! :)

It's fun having things to look forward to though. Joe is coming down today (yeah, you probably figured that one out on your own!) and we're going to develop my roll of film, and have some lunch, and he's going to hear all about my spring break (and hopefully see the pictures). And after that, who knows! But it's going to be awesome to see him again!

You may recall that this week marks six weeks since I broke up with Ryan. You may also recall that six weeks was the time I allotted myself as a healing period before getting into something new. (Yes, I know the line is fuzzy to you but we know where it is, and that's what counts.) So how am I feeling now that I'm here?

I can tell you: excellent. I feel good about myself and confident in my feelings and my decisions and my actions over the past few weeks. I'm proud of us for sticking to the six-week deadline. I'm proud of myself for getting to where I am now. I'm still amazed at how completely my life has changed in a month and a half! A good friend said to me last night, "i have found i've often been surprised by God's plan." So true. So funny how I never really considered God's plan before now, but praying has worked wonders for me, and church has been amazing too. I've actually been getting something out of it. :) Yesterday Pastor Betty's sermon was pretty much about tolerance, and how United Methodism is a religion based in tolerance and love. She read some quotes by John Wesley and I wish I could remember all of it. Basically he was saying he believed that things should be done this certain way, but if you don't, if you think they should be done another way, then you keep right on believing it. Here's a quote: "Let all these smaller points stand aside. Let them never come into sight. If thine heart is as my heart, if thou lovest God and all mankind, I ask no more; Give me thine hand." I thought it was cool, especially after the talk I had with my mom and my friend Laurie on Saturday evening. My mom said she thought of me when she heard it.

I digress. I have been hearing that there are people who think I'm going too fast. I just got out of a four-and-a-half-year relationship, and I'm already [probably] having a new boyfriend? It's my aunts who think this (although I don't think they're the only ones), which bothers me a little since they are family and I want to have the support of my family. But I don't think I am rushing into it, as I said I feel confident in my decisions. I was talking to my grandmother yesterday and this is what she said: "It's your life." And it is! So it doesn't matter what my aunts think. They are in the minority anyway; most of the people I have seen and talked to (including my parents, and their opinion is more important) have said I look great and I look and seem so happy, and they are happy for me. I AM happy, and it's nice having their support and having them ask all about Joe and tell me how much they're looking forward to meeting him. :)

Besides, as far as my aunts go... they think -I- have problems, but I found out some news about my cousin this weekend that really makes my life seem boring in comparison. :D

So how is Ryan doing at this point? All right, I talked to him yesterday about it somewhat. He is accepting what is going on but it hurts him and it's not easy. There really isn't much I can do, but that's okay. He will get through it. I am still getting through it myself, and I think it helped for me to admit that. Life does go on.

It's been six weeks and I am happier than I think I have been in a really long time. I'm excited to find out what will happen next in my life. Most of all, I can't wait until 3:00! :)