I'm in a very interesting mood right at the moment. I believe this is partially due to the fact that at the present time I am not dressed. More precisely, I should say that I am naked.

I've been up for a little over 3 hours. I probably spent about two of them taking a bubble bath, followed by a shower. Then I allowed myself to air-dry, except for my hair, which I spent the last half-hour or so blow-drying. I recently read an article that said to avoid frizzies you should blow-dry until your hair is completely dry. Also I've read that it's better for your hair not to use the highest setting. So as a result... over half an hour with the dryer on "low" attempting to get my hair completely dry. I did the best I could anyway... I think it is still slightly damp, but not enough that anyone would actually notice on touching it.

I like the way my hair feels when it's clean and dry. It's really soft. My mom used to tell me, as I was growing up, that I had thick hair, but I definitely don't. Thicker than hers maybe, but I have seen thick hair and I don't have it. Mine is just fine though. I wish it was shiny, but I don't think it's possible to have shiny hair outside of Pantene Pro-V commercials, so I've pretty much given up on that dream. It's very long, too, I think by now probably as long as it was at the beginning of my senior year of high school. I cut 10 inches off it over Christmas break that year and donated it to Locks of Love. I've been thinking about doing that again, mostly because it's getting so long now that I'm considering getting it cut. But at the same time I think I look good with long hair, and it's not really bothering me being so long... it doesn't get in the way too much or anything, and I like being able to do things with it. Not that I ever do... but I can. In a way I think I keep putting off a haircut because I'd like to see how long it will grow. I think senior year of HS is the longest it's ever been. So for now... I'm just going with it. Besides I have read that guys prefer long hair on girls. o:) Joe doesn't care what I do with it, as it is my hair of course, but I think he likes it long. It is fun to do cool things with it for him. Like Phantom Friday, I got my very first updo ever to surprise him, and I think he really liked that. And sometimes I'll put it in twin braids, or pull just the top half back into a ponytail because he likes that. I don't think I ever do anything interesting with it when I'm NOT planning on seeing him. Same with other stuff, like dressing up, wearing jewelry, dabbing on some perfume... I like to make an effort to look/smell good for my guy. And he notices when I do... which is why I do it. :) I dunno... just random thoughts. At any rate, I've been toying with the idea of a haircut for the past, well, I don't know how long but it's been months. For awhile I was forbidden to get one because of Molly's wedding (since long hair styles better), but now that that is past I still see myself with long hair for another few months. Maybe sometime next year I'll get sick of it and chop it all off. :)

As I was blow-drying my hair in front of the mirror I realized something else about myself: I don't think I look good naked. Now, I'm willing to bet that most people don't think they look good in the buff, for one reason or another. People are highly critical of themselves, and I am no exception. Now I don't think I'm hideous or anything, in fact I think that in certain circumstances I look pretty good, perhaps even -- dare I say it? -- sexy. (Hey this is my blog and I can write whatever the hell I want in it.) In the nude though, I don't think I'm overly attractive. I'm not fat, a little squishy but I'm okay with that. My belly isn't flat but it's reasonable and sometimes I think it might even pass as cute. Head, shoulders, face -- I don't think I'm THAT bad-looking. I hate my legs so I wear pants. When I'm dressed I think my figure is okay, I can even wear some clingy-ish stuff and get away with it. So I'm not really dissatisfied with myself. I just don't like the way I look without clothes on. But I'm not going to go into it any more than that, even though I'm tempted to, because it's on my mind, but some things are a bit too personal to put here, even if I HAVE dropped some of my readers since I took the links off my main site.

At least, I think I have. Did you notice? Obviously you're still reading it. :) I may link it back up with peachsummer eventually, but for now I'm just keeping it off to the side. My rant of a couple weeks back led into some blog-related badness and I am still recovering from that in some ways. I'll probably write more about it later.

For now... I am done criticizing myself, as it is time to get dressed. I feel pretty today, but I'm thinking a dress or skirt is probably not the best idea as far as today's wear, since my plans for the evening involve going to Joe's to watch the Bills game. :)

What to wear, what to wear...